When people question me about my work, I am very defensive.
In life, I am usually mellow, albeit moody. I can usually put on a tranquil front at least. Usually I can do some deep breathing. I can feel the tightness of my shoes on my feet and remain in the present moment.
But when someone says, why does this character do that? Or, why doesn’t this ebook work on my phone? Or, how can I print this ebook out in a different way? Then I suddenly tense up and get super annoyed and answer quickly and defensively.
What I’m going to do about that? I don’t know. Shit’s annoying as hell.
I been drinking black coffee. Not today! I’m through with all that; there’s more to living than not dying.
I think there was a drug in the Franzen novel Freedom called Mexico that made people feel zero guilt. Am I remembering that right? I would take that drug! At least once in a while.
Guilt guilt guilt!
Anyways. Like I said before, discomfort = good! No drinking today! Dealing with the guilt head on, hand to hand, face to face, dick to dick and pussy to pussy.
Pachow! Don’t ask me any questions about the way I formatted this post. I will karate chop a nearby object or organism.